Turn Back the Time

There is a girl named Julia looking at the sky from a window..

“What are you looking for?” I start to ask unwisely

“ There’s nothing up there except the white cloud..” my mouth began to say something rude

She just smiled beautifully…

Then she turned back to see me and said “ a memory..”

“about a brother..” once again she looked back at the sky

I yelled to my self “ great, I’m bothering someone right now!”

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“ He is a cheerful, smart, wise, and humble person” suddenly she told me

“I was a foolish person at that time, but we have the same high dream”

“We made such a big effort to reach that dream..”

“ We learned, prayed and discussed together..”

“I often asked him questions because I know nothing…Then he taught me many times ..”

“But, when he started to confuse while I know the answer is.., He asked me back”

“ It seems like there is a disaster coming through in my mind…”

“I just know it, I said.. it confused me too, but I think I know…without any longer explanation..”

“He just smiled again.. and stopped to ask”

“I feel so bad.. but, there is nothing that I can do.. I have a lack of-ability-to explain-disorder..”

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“So, what happen to you and him now?”

“Well..” she cheers “He become what he want.. He reached our dream himself while I couldn’t..”

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“Then, we had a different world.. separated by the distance also..”

“One day, we just started to share about our own new world..”

“ “I have to study hard till overnight..” He sigh..”

“And I sigh,,, “I have to study a kind of world that I know you could do the way better than me..”

“I had to start learned from zero for being able to compare with my friends…”

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“Well, I was too afraid that this feeling growing deeper”

“So, I cut the line..”

“But, it just hurts me more..”

“And I did regret what I’ve done..”

“Somehow, I need someone to share..”

“Once again, I tried to reach him..”

“But it just seems like he  refused me at that time..”

“Then, I realized.. that…”

“He has found his own happiness..”

“With his good personality, his beautiful mind and his faithful in God..”

“He’ll help people a lot just like our dream… He’ll be a great person…”

“I used to know these at the first time I saw him..”

“He and his sincere smile..”

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“Julia, what a pathetic life that we have..”

I smiled to my own self,

it has been many years from now…

I was so young and foolish

Sometimes, I wish that I could turn back the time

But I don’t want to stay there anymore

I’ll just step out and go..

I’ll try to catch my other dreams..

Then I’ll be fine, I promise..